Yesterday morning we woke up to a foot of new snow. Leah and Lucy were hoping school would be canceled. Aaron called the bus driver and he said he was running late but coming. He arrived very much on time for being late. Then the bus got stuck. Aaron unloaded Lucy and her chair. Then he drove our girls to school. The district sent a van to pick up the other children and get them to school.

Lucy had a rough day at school on Thursday. She had to change her color to “yellow.” She said, “It was gonna be a good day and then I just wanted to go home!” So, she had a miserable day. She has been earning chat privileges -the Signing Time Chat on Wednesday night -for good behavior. Guess who will not be chatting this Wednesday??? She says it is her first and last yellow day.

Honestly, I know that blame is totally made up and yet I find I am blaming myself. How silly is that? When we were talking about her choices at school and reminding her that there is only one person who gets to say how her day goes (that would be her), she got that cute quivery lip and started crying, “I don’t want you to go tomorrow!!!!” I was surprised that she was counting down the days until my next trip. I know it was hard for her when I stayed an extra 5 days in NY due to weather. I had committed to her and to Leah that this year I would only leave 2 times a month for 4 days at most on each of the trips a total of 8 days.

I gave her the biggest hug and we both cried. I told her, “Lucy, when you are missing me, you can count on that at the same time I am missing you! Do you know that I talk about you at every performance? I ask everyone if they know who Lucy is. I tell them that she is the beautiful little girl with blue eyes and brown hair, in a wheelchair, who looks a lot like Leah. I tell them you are Leah’s little sister, my youngest daughter. I tell them all about you and point you out in the video at EVERY show.” I think hearing that made her cry even harder, which made me cry even harder.

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